Stop swimming inside yourself. You are clearly drowning and you don’t know where the bottom of this dark water is, or if there is even one. Surface back into reality.

taking a strong inventory test for my job, and it poses all these occupations and asks me to rate them from strongly like to strongly dislike with no regard to my skill/talent/expertise in that area. just if i think i would enjoy that work, regardless if i’m good at it or not. and yet i keep hesitating, changing my answers, because i keep thinking how i can enjoy something if I’m not good at it?/i can’t even imagine doing that work because i always felt i had no talent for that field… when did i get this insecure? when did i grow so afraid?